Disassembled...

10:09 pm - HOT!!

It's like 80 out!

And I'm sweating like crazy in my tiny "Tim Burton room."

I think I need to get myself a fan or something!

I didn't think I'd need one so soon.

08:48 pm - My life: entertainment...

My harrowing tale about the police officer losing my license (friend's only entry) on a dark and windy highway was retold in a recent episode of the podcast Trans-ponder. (Episode #40 to be specific). The noir-ish radio theater is performed by genopunk and jaynatopia.

The story is towards the end, but I highly recommend you listen to the whole podcast. These two are most entertaining and share a lot about their own experiences being transgendered. I always appreciate when transfolk are so upfront about who they are and are willing to share their thoughts and experiences.

10:18 pm - Old...

Tomorrow I am officially old. Or... very close to kinda old.

29

This will be the last year of my twenties. I had best make the most of it. Because, as everyone knows, when you turn 30 you gotta hang up the wings and dog collar, put away the platform heels, and give away all your black clothing to Goodwill to make room for the coral pant suits.


>;)


So whose gonna give me my birthday spanking?

10:59 am - ZIT

Holy shit... I actually woke up with a zit this morning. How insanely appropriate, as I am going to the Prom tonight! XD

06:30 pm - Fetish Fair Fleamarket...

*sniffle*

I iz not going to The Flea...

*dies a little inside*

02:41 pm - CHRISTMAS!!

Know what I got for Christmas?

10.5 hours of sleep!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

And now Santy Claus is going to bring me some Chinese food and I'm going to sit my ass in front of my computer and finish design-schtuff and work on my portfolio! (And maybe a little more 3D thingies)

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

01:15 am - The Night Before Burlesque...

klemrev and I saw Vivid Motion's The Night Before Burlesque tonight. I was nervous, because this year VM decided not to go with their imfamous Nutcracker Burlesque, but an all new original production. I had heard there was more talking/acting as part of the whole performace and in general they were trying to capture the feel of a more traditional burlesque (variety acts).

But, I was very pleasantly surprised. They show came together beautifully. Great dancing, music and even the acting was memorable. The choice of MC was absolutely perfect (great booming voice, lots of charisma on stage). I was concerned that the down time during the speaking parts may be an invitation to heckling by the audience... and there certainly was some heckling, but the performers were masterful with their banter and I would SWEAR that the drunk guy in the back of the house was indeed part of the show!

Not to mention there was still plenty of SEXXXY! I was worried that this years production might get a little too G-rated. And although I think the innocent humor was very present this year, there was still plenty of naughty to go around. I mean... I think this show had a lot more leather and PVC then Nutcracker ever did.

Very good, all around. I highly recommend it.



I actually feel very bad that I did not play a greater part in the show (this is the first VM production in a while that I did not work a light or something.) I'm so not used to being just the audience member. Through the evening I kept thinking, "CRAP! I need to get in the sound booth!" But... no. Not this time. As you all know, too much shit going on with my life right now. The stress of a show would kill me. Hell, doing all the graphics for the promotions stuff nearly killed me, as it was! ;)

09:55 pm - ALIVE!!

~4 hours later, I finally make it home from Boston (normally takes about 2.5 going a reasonable speed).

The weather wasn't too bad (just rainy with a little slush) until I crossed the state line into Maine. A that point the roads were pure ice with a deceptive layer of packed snow. If this wasn't enough, the rain would almost instantaneously freeze when it hit the windshield. And, despite almost dying of heat exhaustion, I had to leave my heat on full blast to prevent a coating of ice to form. My poor windshield wiped were nothing my icicles scrapping across the glass by the end of my journey.

But, the dangerous voyage back was worth it. I had a wonderful time! Met fantastic new peoples! *waves*

Dis will likely be late tomorrow. I'm exhausted from my trip home and I just want to soak in a warm bath.

08:15 pm - Dis comic late...

Disassemblance is going to be late tomorrow. My weekend ran longer than I thought (having too much damn fun to leave Boston) and I have to get up at 5am to get ready for an extra special long day at work tomorrow. I really just want to chill, get to bed fuck-hell early.

Normally I wouldn't mind being tired for work, but tomorrow is this special event where I have to rub elbows with representatives from all the surgical practices in Central/Southern Maine. I have to attend both an early breakfast and a lunch reception, WHILE getting all my other work done.

Please understand. :\

12:24 am - DISASSEMBLANCE DELAYED!!

Continued illness and other events are forcing me to have to delay Disassemblance until after I get out of work tomorrow.

Very sorry.

I'm not making this "A THING," this was a busy week to begin with and getting sick just made it insanely fucked up, as I'm struggling to catch up from an already hectic position. It's a matter of strict priority, I'm afraid, and I'm opting for sleep instead of staying up another couple hours to do the comic. As it is, I'm only going to get a few hours sleep before I need to get up and go in early to work (and possibly stay late).

So the plan for tomorrow:

- Work
- Go home
- Do Comic
- Likely work on other time-sensative projects
- Maybe eat. Maybe
- Get Pretty (though I won't have time to do my full costume... feckin'-A)
- Rawk out (assuming I'm not exhausted)
- Pass out (either exhaustion or alcohol, both are welcomed)
- ???
- Profit

12:15 pm - Schulz and Me...

thesaj clued me into an article about the "complex personality" of Charles Schulz (the creator of the comic strip Peanuts)

The sad, wonderful, complicated life of Charles M. Schulz


Was he the man who suffered anxiety attacks, remembered slights for decades and put every ounce of existential angst into his comic strip, "Peanuts"?

...

Or was he between the lines in "Peanuts" itself, in the melancholy of Charlie Brown, the exuberance of Snoopy, the intellectualism of Linus, the directness of Lucy and the bafflement of Peppermint Patty?



Charles Schulz's life and work is forever woven into the fabric of who I have become. Beyond just being an artistic and personal inspiration, his death coincided with one of the darkest times in my life, but also marked the beginning of my ascension from the darkenss.

The summer before his death was when I had been near my own. Severely depressed and suicidal, this was when that infamous night took place where I went to take my life and instead created Disassemblance.

However, even after the prospects of Disassemblance lightened by spirits, I remained in a deep depression. Looming in the near future was the end of college and the deadline to apply to med school (I was an "accelerated student", and was allowed to apply to med school after only three years of undergrad). It was at this time that I was coming to recognize some very fundemental aspects of myself (my indentity) the least of which was that I didn't want to go to med school and wanted nothing more than to pursue my artistic passions. A realization that brought great strain to my then long term relationship (she made it clear that she wanted to marry a doctor, not an artist).

Charles Schulz passed away the day before my 21st birthday. His death, alongside that milestone birthday, made me think hard about my life. I realized that no matter which path I took, ultimately my life would end. And no matter how badly I fucked my life up (assuming I made the "wrong" choice) the worse thing that could happen to me was I would die. It occured to me that if I was willing to take my own life, and was not afraid to die, then NOTHING should stop me from being who I was born to be, and live the life the way I always wanted. It was then that I KNEW I had to get off my ass and bring Disassemblance to life (amongst other projects).

In the year that followed this epiphany, I decided to not got to med school, but also decided to take my fourth year of undergraduate work (since I finished my degree in three, I mostly took art/philosophy courses my final year). My personal relationship began to crumble. And I prepared myself for an unsure future.



Now I find myself relating to Schulz all the more. A rather withdrawn artist, who exposes their inner processes, in the form of comic characters, for all to consider. It may not be a surprise that people often compare myself and Disassemblance, to Schulz and Peanuts.

I wonder if someone will write a book about me someday. ;)

12:34 am - SAVE DRIFTERS!!

Drifters Is a kick ass music venue in Nashua, NH. It is run by personal friends of klemrev and I. They have a long history of running tremendous establishments for underground music and were(/are) an encouragement to us, especially during The Well days.

They are in need of funds to relocate their latest club to new diggs and keep an awesome thing going in southern NH. If you can spare some change, it would be most appreciated.

According to their website, if you donate $12 (or more) you can receive a free copy of their compilation disc (pictured above). Tracks by some of the incredible New England bands who have graced their stage like The Human Flight Committee, Crownevict, and Mercury Switch...

01:11 pm - YARRR!!!

After a truly horrific evening (gastro-intestinely speaking) I am feeling much better this morning! klemrev, I, and quite possibly her parents are heading out to the beach.

I was going to go out tonight to explore various things, but since I didn't feel well enough to get some things done last night, I'm going to have to stay in a get stuff done. Unfortunately, it ain't all stuff I can just blow off. Some of it is actually paid design stuff on a bit of a deadline. O.o

Apparantly, Plague was kickin' last night, and we just got a confirmed night at a new venue for Flatline: HALLOWEEN! :)

I feel bad because there were some gothfolk relatively new to Maine that were going out to Plague last night. I really wanted to meet them (as one is a prospective DJ). But, I figured being a good representative of Maine Goths did not involve vomiting all over their stompy boots. :x

There's other exciting Gothy Goodness coming down the pike, but I'm not sure what is and what is not up for discussion. So until I consult the respective creators/promoters, that is all I will say about that for now. ;)

Remember!!! I spin next week at Plague (09/14), 9-10p!!! And I do believe the "free before 9:30" that was instituted last night will continue into the future. So relatively poor people and be there early (and hear me spin, dammit!!)

05:39 pm - Maine Roller Derby...

Anyone going to the Maine Roller Derby match tommorrow (09/08) at the Portland Expo?

klemrev and I are thinking about stopping in, assuming there are tickets still available.

01:56 am - Buffy: Season 8...

Before going to Plague on Friday I stopped by Casablance and picked up a few more...



Now I have the first five issues. I admit I have not had a chance to read any of them. But soon...


If feels really nice to be into comics again. I haven't collected any in years. I was totally into a Wolverine series way back in the day. I even had a subscription. But, when, after promising that they were FINALLY going to reveal his true backstory at the end of a long story arc... and then never revealed anything, I quite collecting them. :\

02:57 pm

I had a friend at Black Sun run into someone who knows me, and now I'm trying to figure out who that is. I know, it could be ANYONE, as I am such a huge celebrity and all. ;)

The only information I have is that the person is "Allison" lives in "DC" and is "a lawyer." If this is someone on my f-list and I am simply not making the connection, I apologize.

10:25 pm - Hair and holes...

My hair has been re-blackened.
Now let's see if I can cram these 6g in my lobes.

I have to look my evilest for NYC.

>:)

06:27 pm - Drive in...

Drive-in + Simpsons/Transformers double feature + my sexy raven-haired wife = an awesome night out.

>:)

06:00 pm - More than meets the eye...

klemrev and I are on our way to see TRANSFORMERS!!

WOOO!!!

Nevermind, we got distracted. We'll go see it later in the week. :)

08:58 pm - Suffering and death...

This is necessary...?